Wednesday, April 11, 2007
since im bored again. im gonna reflect about my 18years alive.
lets see, i've always been whining about my life,
how my parents aren't rich enough
how doggy some of my friends can be
how pretty babes dont walk up to me
how unskilled i am in games
how not-good my complexion is
how short i am
how thin i am
i've got my 3 meals, sometimes even more. lol
i've got my fair share of victories.
and i've got loads more.
you see, these are only smallsmall problems, so i can be considered fortunate.
i've made tons of friends,
some 'friends' are backstabbers.
some 'friends' dont share what they got.
some 'friends' have attitute problems.
some 'friends' unknowingly have domineering behaviour making them seem correct all of the time. ( lol)
some just say hi and bye.
u could say i couldn't be bothered about what happens to these people.
sometimes i might even want to make their life worse, it depends.
here i got my good friends.
who share what they've got.
who ask me for help.
who bothers me.
who annoys me.
who makes me sad or happy.
who makes me wonder for them.
whom i can always bother.
whom i can ask help from.
you see, i couldn't be bothered at all if they weren't special.
i've met all kinds of people,
some are friendly,
some aren't,
well some talk alot to me when i dont know them,
and im a fair person, everyone deserves a chance,
i treat everyone nice, till i know more about them,
maybe it'll be nicer or not.
there are many people who i know who speak without thinking,
who behave really doggily,
some are so really dumb u would laugh at them,
people who i would just stand and watch them suffer.
cause they aren't worth my time.
i rejoice .
secretly i enjoy watching them suffer
u would think im mad, evil, stupid, sick or perverted to even have thoughts about this.
well, im not.
sometime in ur life im pretty sure you would have been betrayed, bad-mouthed, or whatever by someone u thought u could trust.
it feels horrible, disheartening.
so to avoid that sucky feeling, be "smart'.
be wary,
but never doubt those who are always around you.
cause they deserve it.
everyone makes mistakes, let it be once, twice,
forgive them.
but if theres a thrice.
well, you decide
i've come to realised that amongst the scary things in our world ,
its humans who are most outstanding.
and i'm glad i got my eyes to spot and my brain to figure out whos good or bad.
then again sometimes i feel as though things aren't so simple.
but im just glad im where i am now. for now.
the few friends i got.
those few i can trust.
those few i believe in.
be glad.
they'r always there
5:32 PM