Wednesday, March 15, 2006
i feel like a loser, i've lost a game today, due to "some reason i dont wanna say out as it would create an uncomfortable environment".
actually it was yesterday, i have high expectations while playing games, i dont like to lose, infact i hate to lose and im not a GOOD LOSER.
if i lose, i'll find reasons to blame others for losing.
i'll convince myself it was totally not my fault.
i am serious in all games i play. i dont do things half heartedly unless im totally not interested in it.
did i mention i hate losing?
makes me feel like a loser, theres these few sayings
winning is not everything, etcetc
u learn something when u lose, etcetc.
actually its all loser talk, created by losers for losers.
argh.
makes me wanna give up
ok im working at suntec on 16th! to 21st i think.
then im gonna get my crappy results back.
and i've watched Devil Besides You.
its one of those touching saddening "makes you cry" taiwanese drama serial,
starring mike he and yang chen ling.
watch it! you won't regret.
its really saddening ok? especially the last episode.
i am feeling so sad.
dumb drama.
and my head's patch is itching like crazy.
1:40 AM